Losing It

I was going to put this on my blog, but Blogger isn't working, what a friggin' surprise.

I am losing my shit. The baby wants to nurse all. the. fucking. time. Isobel wants to be in my lap when ever the baby is nursing, which is all. the. fucking. time. My husband is driving me mad - "Oh, I'll be home early tonight." "Why bother? You don't do anything when you're here anyway." And it's true, he doesn't. The lawn hasn't been mowed in probably 4 weeks. He finally put the boxes up in the attic today, after I'd asked him for the last two weeks to do it. I do everything. The dishes, the laundry, the vacuuming, the mopping and sweeping and cooking and cleaning. And I have two babies to look after, too. One of whom is a newborn. A very needy newborn. I get no time to myself, but he gets to go play poker once a week. I have nothing. If I try to do something, I'm told to take the babies with me because he "can't handle watching them."

Fuck. Charlotte's shrieking. I guess I'll continue this at a later time. Like when she's 12.

Aw, sweety, sounds like you need a big hug, a big and a well deserved

and you hubby needs

Just remember....thing will get better!!!

to you. It sounds like you need to smack some sense into your husband. Men are so dumb at times. I have had to lay down the law with my husband more than once.

Ugg. I've totally been there. Sydney nursed like that, too. Like 22 hours out of the freaking day! I had a 2 1/2 yr. old also and a husband that acted like things should be business as usual. Dinner on the table, laundry done, house clean, sex and of course I had to help him with the total remodeling of our house. Whatever. We, of course, are not married anymore....

I hope things are looking up for you soon!

Thanks.

I just wish I knew how to get thru to him, or if that's even possible. I've asked nicely. I've reasoned. I've cried, I've yelled, I've tried every method I can think of and nothing works. He'll say "I know, I know, I need to do stuff when I get home," but he never does. It's so frustrating. I wouldn't mind so much if he was keeping up his side of the bargain, to do the outside stuff and the big chores inside (like putting in the new boiler, which has been sitting in my cellar for, oh, three months), but he doesn't even do that.

He's not a bad guy. He doesn't gamble, cheat on me or drink away the mortgage, which is more than I can say about my first husband. But he is unbelievably lazy. I'm never going to win any housekeeping prizes, but I would like to be able to walk thru my house without worrying that the teetering piles of crap are going to fall over and kill me.

OMFG! You know we've all been there!
I finally figured out something...they love to have clean laundry and a clean house and dinner on the table but they have NO respect for the job we do. Leaving clothes and shoes on the clean floor, splashing water all over the clean counters. leaving dishes on the table after eating and the list goes on and on and on.....
Those kinds of things are disrespectful.
You know what I did and do?
I leave all his laundry till he needs something so bad he does it himself.
I pile the clean laundry that he won't help put away all over in piles on his side of the bed so I can't see it but he can't friggin get through.
I treat him like a child "baby, please put the juice away!"
"Honey your shoes go in the shoe closet!"
"Your laundry goes in the basket...not next to it!"
Dr. Phil says men have to hear exactly what we want from them...so that's what I do. And when Hubby starts bitching at me that I am so bossy I tell him what for!
"You have no laundry because you don't put it in the basket!"
"You have no dinner because I had to deal with the baby!"
It's not like WE don't have jobs of our own.
And when in doubt and when in reoccuring depression remind yourself that even though he is a man capable of many things women aren't...he can't for the life of him do your job!!!!! Cause he's just not as good as you!!

I actually do that with the dishes, which is my husband's only chore. We don't have a yard and I didn't want him having nothing to do. He will leave them until we hardly have anything to eat off of but eventually they do get done. Thankfully my kitchen is not visible from the living room so I can leave them there forever and not feel embarassed if company drops by.

i used to have to motivate my husband through fear. i would call around and get quotes to have the things done he was not doing. I called to get drywalling quotes, roofing quotes. Its amazing how the loss of money can motivate a guy

I hope you find some relief soon and if you start feeling any worse please talk to your doc!!

I did ask him, last night, if we should hire a kid to mow the lawn. He got pissed and went out and did it.

He is busy and I do appreciate that, but so am I. It just feels like he's doing this because he's the only one bringing in a paycheck - that because I'm not, I have no right to expect him to do anything. Which, IMO, is just so much bullshit.

Fidget - I'm already on anti-depressants. I just get irate sometimes and spout off. I'm not like this all the time. Honest.


And as if to mock me, last night I had another dream that TCBIM and I had decided to have another child. And we were going to start trying to conceive immediately. Keep in mind that Charlotte is (and was in this dream) only three and a half weeks old. I've had this dream twice now. What is WRONG with me??

MUHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA now ask him which company would be most trust worthy to install the new broiler thingie

if you find teh current meds arent working to well, think about trying something new. Giving birth shoots your chemistry to shit so what worked before might not
I know all about those boil over outbursts though - i've had plenty!!!

and thinking about another one? but i had the same thoughts about 5 hours after i shot Tessa out